Part 2: Woman—The Inconvenient Path & Practice

In this stage she begins to reframe the instability that is the feminine experience as positive. She begins to see that she is dynamic rather than unstable, vast rather than too much, magnetic rather than seductive, emptiness rather than empty, rich in expression rather than overly emotional, hyper-focused rather than obsessed.

1. There is now a consciousness of constraint although no conception of what to do with it.
2. There is a tension of inner conflict as natural desire begins to arise—both a seeing of the consequences of having repressed and an automated tendency to continue repressing.
3. We increase the heat and tension rather than decrease it, focusing both on the consequences and the potential; there is an intensified rub.
4. This allows for self-liberating properties to break through the masculine constructions that would keep the gem bound or confined.
5. The felt experience is one where desire becomes the inspiration that moves her forward.
6. Desire is experienced as a force rather than a possession. One senses the intelligence of desire and that it goes beyond our preferences; it shifts from being “my” desire to a clearer form of desire that functions as a guide to liberating itself.
7. She may not yet be able to perceive it with absolute clarity, but the voice of desire becomes louder than the voices of conditioning.
8. A potential pitfall, as she does not yet know the mechanics of the masculine from this place of feminine value, is that she may “over-value” herself; the spot of right-sized may become inflated. Value has not been matched with the metrics of the everyday world and the ability to compress to meet timelines, quality levels, and the feminine version of humility—noblesse oblige.
9. At the same time, she develops a loyalty to desire. Her tendency to compromise and settle for anything other than the “spot” diminishes. This begins to create the resonance that opens lessons.
10. Should her desire be met with disapproval by either herself or others, it will occur as humiliating. It’s humiliating to want, especially things that do not match convention. She may return to step zero again with added ferocity.
11. One is ready to progress to the next step when the dawning comes: “I am loyal first and foremost to desire.”